A Lump Of Clay
In a world full of Conformers, people who allow themselves to be molded by those around them, who conform to others’ opinions and try excessively to look good in the eyes of a deteriorating society, I’ve decided I’ve had enough. The past two years of high school have gone by in a flash and, thinking of it now, I’ve realized that I’ve spent those two years trying desperately to fit in, to be accepted by others. I’d been a Conformer, blindly following “the crowd” and losing sight of my own purpose. And the worst part was that I’d known all along and had been perfectly fine with it. I’d accepted the fact that I wasn’t a person, but a lump of clay that molded into what I thought people wanted me to be. I’d been a streak of white-out on a piece of white printer paper, indistinguishable, unnoticeable, unimportant. It’s funny because day in and day out, you see people who try too hard to be something they know they’re not, something they know they can never be. People who lack the self-acceptance that could make them something important, set them free from the prison of an ever-growing blob of gray that’s slowly engulfing our society today. I’ve made some stupid decisions the past few years (with “some” equating to roughly ten billion) and right now, I’m regretting every single one. But I suppose that’s a good sign.
So this summer, I’ve set out to do something I wouldn’t originally have thought of doing: changing. Transforming myself from that dull gray lump of clay to a glistening block of steel. This is part of the reason I’m getting a professional camera and not buying an Xbox (or a PS3 for you Playstation fans), why I’m writing these posts on Tumblr to begin with. So that I can be different and not adhere to what a stereotypical teenager should do, so that I can be myself. I’m going to become an Individual, someone who breaks free from the “crowd”, a splotch of red paint on the dull gray canvas of the world. After all, do we really deserve to call ourselves individuals if we’re dependent on everyone else? The whole point of being an individual is being independent, being your own true self and not an insignificant part of “the crowd”.
And if you think about it, what is “the crowd” anyway? A soulless group of zombies who blindly follow each other in an attempt to gain respect? In that case, why would anyone want to follow and be a part of them? (I guess I’m making myself look stupid right now.) Be different. Show the world you’re not afraid to stand out, to display who you really are. Break away from the crowd and be something independent altogether. After all, why be a part when you can be a whole? I tried to be a part of the crowd for a long time, and I guess I still do sometimes. But I’m making an effort to break away, and I know it won’t be easy. Easy to follow, hard to lead, right? But that’s the point. At the end of the day, the accomplishment of becoming an Individual is what matters. So go ahead and ask yourself. Are you an Individual or a Conformer? A block of steel or a lump of clay?